Never Once

Have you ever heard a song for the hundredth time and for some reason it just strikes you differently this time?  Yeah, me too (at least I hope I'm not the only one)!  Monday I was driving the boys to a doctors appointment and a song came on the radio that we have sung in church quite a few times.  I've even heard it on the radio a lot, but for some reason it just resonated with me in a new way.  Here it is:

Standing on this mountain top
Looking just how far we've come
Knowing that for every step 
You were with us
Kneeling on this battleground
Seeing just how much You've done

Knowing every victory
Was Your power in us

Scars and struggles on the way
But with joy our hearts can say
Yes, our hearts can say

Never once did we ever walk alone
Never once did You leave us on our own
You are faithful, God, You are faithful
You are faithful, God, You are faithful

Standing on this mountain top
Looking just how far we've come
Knowing that for every step
You were with us

Scars and struggles on the way
But with joy our hearts can say
Yes, our hearts can say

Never once did we ever walk alone
Never once did You leave us on our own
You are faithful, God, You are faithful
Every step we are breathing in Your grace
Evermore we'll be breathing out Your praise
You are faithful, God, You are faithful
It's true, You are faithful, God You are faithful

Scars and struggles on the way
But with joy our hearts can say
Never once did we ever walk alone
Carried by Your constant grace
Held within Your perfect peace
Never once, no, we never walk alone

We know, You are faithful, God, You are faithful 

This song was published in 2011, but it seems like the songwriter has been walking through the last two years of my life with me.  With all of the uncertainty of this period, one thing was certain.  We NEVER walked alone.  At times we weren't even doing the walking, we were being carried.  

We were never promised an easy road, but we were promised to have a hand to hold (or to carry us as the case may be) along the way.   The Lord has proven himself faithful over and over again in my life and our journey with Brinkley's health has been no exception. How blessed I am to serve a faithful Father.  The story has not always played out the way that I may have chosen, but it has played out in such a way that all glory and honor are His; as it should be.

I am standing on His promise of faithfulness as we have hit a road block this week. Currently we are waiting out the healing process with Brinkley's g tube.   This is a very minor issue, but it is causing Brinkley a lot of pain and stress, which in turn causes this mommy stress.  After removing his tube last week, the site is not healing properly on its own and is going to require our surgeon to intervene.  Brinkley will be having a minor surgery for the repair.  This would typically be an outpatient procedure, but due to his history he will stay overnight for observation.  

The stressful part is that our surgeon is currently away. He will not be back and in the OR until June 23rd.  Brinkley is on his schedule for that day.  We have a wonderful surgeon and would feel more comfortable waiting for him to do the surgery rather than one of his partners, if we can hold out.  Please pray that we can keep Brinkley comfortable while we wait and that I will have the wisdom to know if the time comes for another doctor to intervene.

We know that we are not alone in this and that the Lord will hold us in His perfect peace while we wait.